Good for you Meredith. We’re proud of you.
Thats it. I’m done feeling horrible about myself every day. I’m done cutting. Im done feeling suicial. Im done with being depressed. I don’t give a fuck. I want to actually live. I know I’m only aboout 14. But its so worth it. I’ve lost one of my bestfriend that was so good to me, so non-judgemental, so caring, so trusting. And I ruined it with all my stupid mistakes. I would do anything to have my one bestfriend back. Anything. I want to be happy. I want to be my awkward-self. I’m done with depression. I want to be a person again. Why? I got inspired. As cliche as that sounds, its true. How? There was this one how in MTV a while back called “The Buried Life”, it was about these four guys that lived with a motto, “What Do You Want To Do BeforeYou Die.” They havent been on MTV for a while, but I still keep up with them. And they made a list, a list of 100 things they want to do before they die. And with every thing they cross off on their list, they help a person do something they want to do before he/she wants to do before they die. If I ever got to meet them. Or even talk to them. I would be so thankful. They helped me, in a weird way? I dont know, but all I can say is thank you, for everything.